什麼是喜歡? - 處女
By Elvira
at 2017-01-10T03:54
at 2017-01-10T03:54
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最近心裡總有這樣的想法:到底什麼是喜歡?
這幾年常常會這樣,跟一個對象熟悉到一定程度以後,就會開始想逃跑
偶爾會看著對話紀錄發楞,想著:「我為什麼會一直跟這個人聊天?」
或者看著對方的照片「這就是我喜歡的人嗎?」、「我喜歡他什麼?」
然後發現自己找不到答案後,就會開始想要遠離這個人...
明明一直以來都聊得蠻開心的,也很喜歡跟這個人聊天,
偶爾也會丟個球、見個面,相處起來也都很愉快
但是總是會在某一天、某個時間點開始,好像這段時間不是自己的一樣
開始對對方冷淡、疏遠,之後就是不了了之
過了一陣子後,可能偶然會再跟對方聊起天來,但就真的只是聊天了
有時候會懷疑自己是不是有什麼穩定關係的恐懼症之類的
好像開始習慣另一個人出現在自己生活中後,
就會開始想要把這個人踢出自己的生活圈外一樣,
而這個人,他可能根本沒有做錯什麼事、沒有踩到任何地雷
只是在突然之間就不想再跟這個人有更進一步的發展
矛盾的是,當我們的關係開始出現曖昧的時候,
我其實是會期待有段感情能夠進展成為穩定、甚至長久的交往
卻不知道為什麼總是會自己突然喊卡踩煞車
我想被我遇到的這些人大概都覺得很莫名其妙吧......
以最近來說,偶然的認識一個新對象
他是個很陽光的男孩,跟他聊天總是很開心
從一開始有一搭沒一搭的聊天,到慢慢發現彼此很多共通點
於是便開始每天的噓寒問暖與閒聊,跟他聊天很愉快、也很放鬆,
從小時候聊到現在、從朋友的事聊到家人的事
常常都會聊到忘了時間,然後才會趕快趕對方去睡覺
上班、下班都會互相報備,也會關心對方吃了沒、穿得暖嗎?
會分享彼此生活的大小事,看到有趣的東西會丟給對方一起笑
發現彼此可能會有興趣的東西也會傳給彼此
原本真的很喜歡跟這個人相處的感覺,也覺得這個人蠻好的
到後來也開始有了些曖昧,偶爾也會撒撒嬌、鬥鬥嘴
可是,突然有一天就像什麼開關被關掉了一樣
原本習慣的相處方式開始覺得「為什麼要這樣?」
本來很習慣對方了解我的生活作息,總會在我下班時間問我「下班了沒?」
卻開始覺得不耐煩、覺得沒有自己的空間、覺得有點緊迫盯人
可能前一天我還認為這些事已稀鬆平常,也會等他的訊息
但是就真的好像在一瞬間通通歸零了
在這之後,對方傳來的訊息跟關心都會讓我越來越覺得不耐煩...
當我發現自己又開始重複一樣的模式後,也開始對對方感到抱歉
簡單的跟他說了自己的狀況以後,這段關係也就不了了之了
總覺得自己好像失去了喜歡人的能力
看著電影、電視裡的浪漫場景心裡明明很嚮往、很憧憬
可是卻一直不斷的把對自己好的人推開
有時候真的好討厭這樣一直在傷害別人的自己....
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