真實 - 天秤
By Jacky
at 2011-02-10T14:57
at 2011-02-10T14:57
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「我知道自己在做什麼」妳這樣堅定的跟自己說。
妳知道愛人沒有想像中來得容易,每一步都有可能被絆倒,每一步都走得戰戰兢兢,
每一步都椎心刺骨,但是當妳看到對面的他的微笑,妳可以不顧路上的那些阻礙、腳下
的那些荊棘,只想加快腳步走到他面前,給他一個大大的擁抱,因為妳真的好愛好愛他。
妳知道被愛比較不會受傷害,但是看著那些禮物,看著眼前這個滿心期盼的男生,妳知道
只要妳點頭,妳會是世界上最幸福的公主,但是妳的心裡滿滿的都是他,沒有一點縫隙塞
得下別人。妳愧疚地看著那個男生失望離去的背影,心裡卻也偷偷的鬆了一口氣。
在他面前妳像大海,無條件地包容他所有的孩子氣,只因為他說只有在妳面前他才能放鬆
。不管他說什麼,妳總微笑著點頭說好,彷彿失去了自己的喜好,只因為妳不想看到他失
望的表情。妳從來不要求他帶妳到哪裡玩,只想去老地方散散步,因為那是一切幸福的起
點,妳想像著你們會從那地方越走越遠。
當他說叫妳不要太愛他時,妳的心抽痛了一下,卻還是笑著說好。妳從來不知道要怎麼
「別太愛一個人」,因為妳就是深深的愛他了,要怎麼收回?他說怕會傷害妳,妳笑著說
「我可以承受」,妳以為做好心理準備就不會太痛,後來才知道心理準備做多久都不夠。
他說他非常非常缺乏安全感,妳做了一切妳能夠做的,只希望他知道無論如何妳都會愛他
;他說他缺乏勇氣,妳說沒關係,因為愛他妳變得好勇敢,妳說兩個人在一起就是要互補
;妳平時計較的公平都丟到九霄雲外,妳覺得自己的付出變得好輕好輕,而他的笑容變得
好重好重。
妳只要靜靜看著他在妳大腿上熟睡的臉龐就覺得幸福,只要聽到他說我愛妳就好開心,只
要被他擁在懷裡就感動得想哭,妳緊緊的抓著這些證據,告訴自己他很愛妳,但為什麼妳
還是看了他的對話紀錄,然後發現那些曖昧的話語,那個向他告白的女孩,知道妳的存在
嗎?
妳還是一樣假裝一切都很好,所有的溫柔體貼都沒有變,只是自己默默掉淚的時候多了一
些,擦乾臉頰,妳依舊帶著微笑迎接他。當他說能不能先當朋友時,妳的心情五味雜陳,
似乎又痛又釋然,妳沒有哭,反而安慰哭得很慘的他,他的哭泣是因為不捨或是愧疚,妳
沒有問。
「太多疑問,知道答案又如何。原來容忍,不需要天份,只要愛錯一個人。」
妳知道妳沒有怪他,他開宗明義的告訴妳他的心裝了許多人,妳只是天真的以為妳會是最
特別的那一個。當他說妳是他最深愛的人,妳喜極而泣,但是妳忘了他還有其他愛得少一
點的。妳明白傷害妳的再沒有其他人,就是妳自己,是妳把這個權力給了他,是妳把自己
擺得太低,是妳任由一切失衡。
痛到極限妳反而笑了。假裝生活正常、假裝心情開朗,朋友沒有一個發現妳的異狀,這樣
比較輕鬆妳想,妳沒有辦法向任何人提起這件事,會讓妳又難堪又崩潰,這不是一個秤女
應該有的樣子。妳堅持優雅、堅持淡然,離開得灑脫,是妳留給自己最後的自尊。
天秤的女孩,愛上的時候毫不保留,離開的時候毫不留戀。但這並不代表她不難過、不在
乎,只是她從不在任何人面前示弱。只有自己知道,在她的微笑背後,有一道用眼淚推砌
起來的心牆,藏著一顆千瘡百孔的心,還有一個膽小的女孩。
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